I just wanted to say – feel free to comment and offer feedback, I haven’t gotten much on this story yet and am very curious as to what everyone thinks in the direction that I am going, being different than my usual antics.
Also, just of not – Samantha’s character is vaguely based on Samantha McCall from General Hospital, hence the mother’s name being Alexis and Diane being utilized. You don’t need to watch the soap to really know any details to her, as I said I am doing her loosely based off and most of Samantha’s background is fully written in here for you.
I’m also introducing Alanna (the mystery adoption girl that Samantha is helping) a little more here – including a headshot and everything. Why? Well, she could grow to become even more important down the road with a possible storyline of her own. Comment which driver you’d like to see have a more involving role here.
Wednesday January 27 – Charlotte, North Carolina
Samantha flips the small piece of paper over in her hand once again for what seemed like a millionth time.
After seeing her mother about 72 hours ago, discussing the adoption process, and receiving the number of the broker who arranged her adoption, she was determined to return back home to North Carolina and give the lady a call to see if she had any information.
Given her background in P.I., she knew it was probably unlikely for this lady to have information. Any adoption that wasn’t done on the books didn’t seem to have any paper trail or computer notes, so you mostly relied on the person’s memory. Why would this girl remember her from over 20 years ago when she probably brokered a bunch of other deals?
However, she wouldn’t know the truth if she didn’t dial the number – but yet here she sat in the same spot on the couch, flipping the same piece of paper over for the hundredth time as she overheard Ryan doing some interview in the other room.
Perhaps it was because she knew gaining a reasonable explanation was highly unlikely. Perhaps she was also scared of what could come of this search. What if she found some truth about her real family that was unnerving? What if she never got the chance to meet them? What if the reason why they adopted her out was because they thought she should never exist? Perhaps the fear was knowing further investigation continued to affirm the truth in her heart that Alexis wasn’t her real mother, and she didn’t quite know how to handle that yet.
She knew these were all feelings she could share with her friends, but it just didn’t seem right sharing parental issues like this with Paige and Alexa. Both girls had parental issues of their own – abusive, controlling, toxic relationships each in their own way. Samantha had gotten lucky in Alexis at least being loving and caring, and it wasn’t about to burden her friends with regrets in that regard.
Though glancing at her phone, she knew there was someone else who had been down a similar route.
She hadn’t messaged her as much in the past week or so as she would normally, probably all due to her own emotions. Being around Alanna was just a reminder of her own situation, and even worse in knowing what it was like when you did not get the answers you wanted.
She had debated telling Alanna the truth right from the beginning. She felt it’d be nice to have someone to relate to, but then paused upon sending the message. After all, why should she burden someone else with her difficulties when they were in a much worse situation?
Now as she name burned in her mind, she couldn’t help but wonder a very question.
Samantha
10:34am
Hey. Can I ask you a question? Why did you reach out to me initially for answers?
She hated herself as soon as she hit the send button and realized the message would be right before Alanna’s eyes. She knew there was turning back from those fears of saying or facing the truth upon the beginning of the conversation, but yet also regretted the perhaps confusion that would come. what if she took the message the wrong way?
Alanna
10:45am
I wanted answers. I want some definition to my life as I watched everything fall apart before me. I thought it’d be possible to find the longing that I needed to help me through that rough period. It was a piece of thread to hold onto. Why? Is something wrong?
The last words caused a lump to form in her throat as Samantha knew she had messed up upon sending the message, clearly sending the wrong signals as she expected. While she was in her pity, it felt twice as bad in knowing she done that to someone else, someone who depended upon her so much sometimes as her fingers furiously pounded the keys.
Samantha
10:47am
Just got some stuff on my mind, sorry for the random question. I never meant to catch you off-guard or wrong signals. I have no regrets or problems with you reaching out or what has come since then. Actually, I’m glad to have been able to help you as much as I could – even if unable to find those answers you wanted. I’m glad to call you a friend, Alanna.
Taking a deep breath, she hoped that soothed over everything as she would hate to change what they had together just because of her own doubts and fears – which seemed so ridiculous when compared to everyone else’s stories.
Alanna
10:50am
That makes me smile, because I’m glad to know you Sam. You have been so helpful and beneficial in ways that I couldn’t imagine. I’ve told you before – I don’t know if I could do this without you sometimes.
Just as she was saying to herself – things could always be worse.
She could have no family, no companionship, no one to save her from falling, and not a drop of happiness. She could be in the dumpster, trying to struggle her way through each day.
She could also find herself in a similar spot like Alanna, or dealing with what was left of a parent’s toxic relationship and emotional damage as Paige experienced.
Taking a deep breath, it was a quick reminder – and one she shouldn’t forget, to not let a go by without counting her blessings.
Samantha
10:52am
In that regard, know that you can always reach out to me whenever as I’m always here. Sorry I’ve been distant lately. It’s just lots going on.
She almost didn’t want to send the last five words, but she kenw she owed Alanna some sort of explanation. More importantly though was the sentences before then.
Alanna
10:54am
If you need someone to talk to, you can always lean on me. I’m willing to help you – least I could do for you.
Samantha appreciated the gesture, and was almost set to accept it in a grand way with sharing every detail of what she’d been through in finding the note from her mother. But she held back – she couldn’t do that quite yet. She couldn’t place her own burden, fears, emotions on Alanna’s shoulders, still feeling bad the file remained with so many questions.
Samantha
10:56am
Appreciate it but I’m good, and I wish I could’ve done more in finding those answers you wanted. I still keep an eye out when talking to people because they got to be somewhere, I believe.
She truly believed that as someone had to have a memory of Alanna all the way back then, something that stood out in their mind that could be connected to something else and begin the trail she needed. Someone couldn’t be as amazing as Alanna was and not leave that imprint somewhere.
Alanna
11:00am
You don’t have to do that. I know I may not have gotten the answers I wanted, but I got a friendship that means more than whatever they could’ve been. Focus on those who you can help and may be able to find the answers for.
Samantha takes a deep breath, glancing back to the piece of paper that sat on the table with the number scribbled on it from her mother. She had copied the phone number into her contact already, but still held the piece of paper.
Maybe it was actually worth a call to the broker.
Wednesday January 27 – Beard Motorsports
Noah looks at his name above the door of the car, running his fingers across where it was now officially stuck and ready to go for next month. He was still trying to stay in the moment, be cool about everything, but it was like a brick wall in walking into the shop and seeing it there today.
He was going to make his NASCAR Cup Series debut at Daytona next month.
He shakes his head in disbelief, thinking it was almost the craziest thing to believe was happening. It was just four years ago that he was driving trucks for Kyle Busch, wondering if he could even make it in NASCAR with how badly he struggled at times. It was only a couple years before that he was trying to land the right opportunity to even have a chance within the sport.
Now he was going to get his chance in the biggest series of them all, and a deep breath in, he knew he was going to do everything in his power to take full advantage of that. Go big or go home, right?
Climbing in the car, he looks around with a smile on his face as it seemed all the discussions he had with them on Monday had paid off. The dashboard, and other creature comforts in the car seemed to be set to his liking, with the seat just about comfortable and perfectly molded to his butt.
Taking out his phone, he was almost set to send a selfie of himself sitting in the car, classic Noah in taking care of social media and the fans, though froze upon looking at the background.
He smiled remembering when they took the photo. While he had never been in awe about Las Vegas having grown up there, Emily was making her first trip to the big city of glamour so he played the perfect tour guide one day, showing her all the spots she heard about. It was upon seeing the famous Welcome to Las Vegas sign they stood together and took a selfie before it – just like a tourist would. In all his years, he had never taken his own photo there with anyone or by himself, and it was an even bigger smile in realizing they had shared that together.
The moment, though, seemed so long ago as they hadn’t been around each other since she returned back to school almost a full month ago. Going through the motions of media days and training for the year, it hadn’t bothered him – but now it sat in and it stung worse than anything.
Why did Emily Porter have this effect on him?
His gut instinct was to open his text messages, and send all those feelings to her – express just how badly he wanted to hold her, be around her, comfort her, and have her to himself. He wanted to shout the words I love you from the top of the mountain. It was typical Noah fashion to go for broke because that’s how he handled everything.
Though as he opened their text messages, he froze upon remembering Cole Custer’s advice. “We both know if start trying too hard that you’ll fuck it up,” rang his head over and over.
He remembered her fear over commitment – probably related to her parents and her past. He remembered how she worried they were growing too quickly together, something he had thought about just a touch himself. Was he falling fast for her comfort due to missing it in other aspects? Nah, that’d never be a Noah thing ever.
Closing his eyes, he remembered the rest of Cole’s words – something about taking it slow, going with the flow, not doing anything drastic or different and just seeing where things go.
Another glance at her name, he knew there was one way to do that. Everything had reached a new level with a simple invite to join him for New Years, so why not take that approach here, too?
Noah
12pm
Hey. Each driver allowed to have their gf wit them for Daytona. So, do you want to join me?
Taking a deep breath, his only fear was that she’d go off running in seeing the girlfriend. His breath caught in his throat in repeating it himself.
Was this reality? Noah Gragson had a girlfriend? That was impossible. It seemed he always screwed up every pick up line or time with anybody.
“Maybe Cole was onto something,” he says to himself.
Emily
12:02pm
Could use a break from boring professors & Daytona sun is always nice for a fan. Plus, you’d be okay company I suppose. I’m game.
Noah could only chuckle in how she elected to word her response, though couldn’t help but let out a big cheer in seeing the response. He was going to get to see his girl again – he just had to wait 11 days, which felt like an eternity.
“I heard a yell and wondered what it was,” Noah hears, breaking him out of his own world in a matter of seconds. It seemed whenever he heard Mark Beard’s voice, he stood at attention. After all, this was the man responsible for his opportunity here – well, one of them but he was footing the bills so he really mattered. “If you get this excited about getting in the car, I can only imagine your reaction when you get on track at Daytona.”
“What can I say? I’m very excited for this opportunity sir,” he replies, saying to himself in more ways than one as he knew it was another chance to leave a lasting impact on Emily and get somewhere, and he wasn’t about to blow that. “Thank you, once again.”
“I told you already, Noah. You earned it via your success last year in the Xfinity Series. Enjoy it as I have a feeling this is going to be a great partnership.” Noah could only wish he knew the truth, and was talking about him and Emily in that regard.
“I hope you’re right.”